memorial day

memorial day fun
this weekend was a fun one... don and i spent it with friends and celebrated his upcoming birthday. Monday we went to the James River and took the kids with us.Caleb really liked it but Jadyn was a little scared at 1st. It worked out really well and Caleb is still talking about it.
here are some memorial day fun pics -- take a look!

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crazy night lights!

  

I'm In Over My Head

"Everyone Knows I'm In Over My Head..
I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
You find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows
She's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm over my

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind"

Anger

“What makes anger different than the other 6 deadly sins?
It’s pretty simple, with the others – you only hurt your self…
and maybe one or two others with the other sins
– but anger is the worst…the mother of all sins…
not only can anger drive you over the edge
–but you can take a whole lot of others with you.”
- Grey’s Anatomy may 14th 2006

may 13th 2006

May 13th 2006 – what a day!
I have now been married for 5 years—that is an accomplishment!
As well, I finally graduated college! I received a Bachelors of Communications in Graphic Design and Advertising. So, it took me 5 years of college and it’s been 8 years since I graduated High school. —I’m still happy. – but I am sad it’s over… that chapter closed.
What i will miss… despite the fact that I do live in Bible Belt City USA!
I will still miss the Liberty Bubble. It’s a great Christian community
- it’s a great place to be. As much as we (liberty students) complain.
I love school, I will miss the classes, the people and learning.
I love to be around the youthfulness, exuberance and expectancy all around.
For me – it’s not “time to grow-up” or face the “real world” …
I was supposed to do that a long time ago… it is time for me to go back to making my family priority and the old hum drum… I do hope to get a part time job- but we’ll see how that pans out…. Overall I think that being at Liberty has given me more than a husband and a degree, I have learned a lot about life. & about how good it can feel to be around all different types of people. I think that my time there, has helped me to become a better, more well rounded person. Actually I can’t really put into words all that I want to say. But it was a good day and at the end I think I know who will stick with me even though the thick of it. Today I am happy!
I have to add that I am extremely grateful to my parents and my dear husband for supporting me in my endeavors

"Sometimes we have these two-dimensional viewpoints that limit us."

“Life can only be understood backwards;
but it must be lived forwards.” -- Soren Kierkegaard

a mother's day post

In My Daughter's Eyes"In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes

And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about

It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daugter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes"
-Martina McBride

Reluctant Daughter

"Jesus, tell my Father
I want to be His child again
Tell Him what my name is
In case He's forgotten

Tell Him I'm the woman
At the well
Drawing water
And I'm sorry if I've been His
Reluctant daughter

Jesus, tell my angels
To keep me in their prayers
Remind them how I need
To feel them everywhere

Tell 'em I'm ready to drink
Living water
I don't want my angels to think
I'm His
Reluctant daughter

Jesus, tell my Father
I want to come to heaven
Tell Him to shout my name out
So I won't be forgotten"
-Martina McBride

“Enjoy you day.”

The other day I called 411 for a #, after I received the telephone number that I had requested, the voice on the other end said, “Enjoy you day.” As if it something I needed to do! I was stunned. I was not heralded with the usual, “Have a nice day”.

“Enjoy your day” was the command! I realized, there was a decision to me made.

Was I simply going to continue to endure my day, or was I going to enjoy it to its fullest no matter what was brought my way?

As a mom, I think it is easy to labor under guilt and not have enough time to get things done. Giving and doing so much and sometimes mom’s just endure the seemingly endless diaper changes, stories to read, messes to clean up and answering the why, why why’s.

I have spent many days, enduring the monotonous with my head off in some cloud wishing to be somewhere else doing anything else.

My oldest son is four and can do a lot for himself these days. Yet, it seems as though it was just yesterday that I was watching him sleeping angelically in his bassinet.

Having lived many of my “mommy” days as an endurer, I decided then and there to be an enjoyer! Sometimes it is difficult, but I realize that my two-year old daughter will not want me to roll a ball with her for much longer. I have been encouraged to take that break away from what I may deem as most important, when one of my kids asks me to play or needs special attention. & I will enjoy it!

My hope is that I will have many days of enjoyment with my kids. So, take some time for those important people in your life and definitely, “enjoy your day”

BROKEN

relationships & success

I do believe that one of the most important “ingredients” one can put into any relationship is not what we say or what we do, but what we are. So the place to begin building any relationship is on the inside – out own character.

I think that people cannot get to where they are with out coming the way they came.
There aren’t any shortcuts… the troubles of life.. the path is covered with the fragments of broken relationships. – some from peoples’ own stupidity… some from people jumping into the without the maturity, or the strength of character, to maintain effective relationships. There are prices to be paid for success.- if that can be measured in relationships.

running boy

  

THE SERENITY PRAYER

I know this is old and we've all heard it before. but i think it's a good one.

God, grant me the Serenity
To accept the things I cannot change...
Courage to change the things I can,
And Wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as the pathway to peace.
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it.
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His will.
That I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with Him forever in the next.
Amen.

Attributed to Reinhold Neibuhr

the kiddos

  

don and the kids

  

thoughts

think about the strangest things sometimes late at night… like what a crappy person I am – I have a real escapist mentality…. Like how nice it would be to not have to live up to anyone else’s expectations…. But I know that is ridiculous.
But more importantly, I think about how I really had/have a desire to do the best possible in things- achievements like school and softball and running/sports…. But when it comes to the really important things, my Christian walk, family, mothering, being a good wife
I just settle for mediocre… even for less than okay. Why would I do this? I really do have a desire to be the best I can be in all that I do. I think that maybe it’s because if I do try my hardest and I’m giving my all that I’ll still not meet the mark or live up to my own expectations and other’s standards that I will really feel like a failure. Of course I want to give God, Don and my kids my best and the most that I can. But relationships are so difficult and confusing. It’s not like a person can really measure or quantify the success of a relationship… unless it’s just in happiness -I guess.
I think I do better at things that are measurable or things where I can see the success. But success in life is not something a person can really measure up… it’s not like there is one measure for success or coming in #1.
Anyways, I think my point it that I have come to realize that by accepting the mediocre & not pushing myself to give my all and push to do the best I can in the small and big things in life – that I am a failure. I want to do better not for man or myself but for God and for the people who depend on me.